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Charlie Langston
Artist | Hobbyist | Other
United States
"I'm an artist who enjoys drawing human/anthro anime."



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Minitokyo - charlieascende.minitokyo.net/
FurAffinity - www.furaffinity.net/user/charl…

Current Residence: California
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I really don't know where to start. I'm actually feeling really tired right now and been thinking about whenever or not I should write a honest journal about how much of an asshole I was but... Here it goes...


Last year on the same date of the same month (August 17th to be highlighted) I've already shook the whole entire world around VoidShark :iconvoid-shark: in a most discussed way that she blocked me for the past three months until she decided to unblock me on the month of November, 2015.

The reason I've done more than enough damage to her is because I've been taking her female Qwuedeviv characters Elly and Purdy Purr as my shipping subjects for my fewer pics without asking her permission to do so. There are other things aside from that that I've gotten her riled up. Though it's hard to put it in pieces since I've already been shattered by such harsh truth that she's been opening my eyes to see how much I've brought this horrible actions I've brought on myself, not only I've cause much stress and damage to her but to her close friends as well: Wuff :iconokamiseinen: / :iconle-okami:, Ruffy :iconruffyluv:, and the very few others close to her that I've hurt as well. The other things... Well... Lets just say that I was being obnoxious on her livestreams as well but that's something that gets me completely nervous about elaborating things cause it just terrifies me when I think back about it and just makes me want to think about having myself a cryo stasis that I would rather die in, sleeping through time forever just to avoid hurting her even further.

I've broke much of her rules from the official Qwuedeviv group :iconqwuedeviv: over the years that I'm not proud of. Sharky along with her admins had been working very hard trying to keep it clean and more officially canon from going off of proportion but I've keep on denying it and made enough destruction on her art community. Worst of all, I've poised myself on thinking if I could make my own feline species that's based off from her Qwuedeviv/Keh'Kitteh species counterpart so I've gone ahead and post a original sketch of it on DA that would bring Wuff's attention in a bad way. He was acting nice at first as if he was trying to keep his head cool then next thing he posts a journal about how much of an asshole I was to her.

Le-Okami:
Hey Guys, Let's talk About Something Important.People can be rather incorrigible sometimes. Some people can take things too far when they don't get their way. Here's just such a person. :iconcharlieascende: <-- him.
He thinks he has the right to use other peoples' copyrighted *COPYRIGHTED* characters however he likes (like, let's say, shipping EVERY FEMALE CHARACTER in that universe with his self representative character... which is only one thing he's done) and then usually claim it to be canon, so long as he refers to the pic as a 'gift'... unless you flat-out say 'no, you're being stupid.'. x3 And if said person actually calls him on it, he tries to defend what he does, albeit briefly, with nonsensical arguments. Or better yet, when he sees he can't win an argument (99% of the time), he'll try to delete all traces... only to go and then make a rather blatant stab at that person by posting a journal about how he was misunderstood, or some other generic lie.
Now, it' d be one thing if that was his only crime. -3- it is not :I H

Okamiseinen:
Hey Guys, Let's talk About Something Important.People can be rather incorrigible sometimes. Some people can take things too far when they don't get their way. Here's just such a person. :iconcharlieascende: <-- him.
He thinks he has the right to use other peoples' copyrighted *COPYRIGHTED* characters however he likes (like, let's say, shipping EVERY FEMALE CHARACTER in that universe with his self representative character... which is only one thing he's done) and then usually claim it to be canon, so long as he refers to the pic as a 'gift'... unless you flat-out say 'no, you're being stupid.'. x3 And if said person actually calls him on it, he tries to defend what he does, albeit briefly, with nonsensical arguments. Or better yet, when he sees he can't win an argument (99% of the time), he'll try to delete all traces... only to go and then make a rather blatant stab at that person by posting a journal about how he was misunderstood, or some other generic lie. 
Now, it' d be one thing if that was his only crime. -3- it is no


I've posted these journal posts from his two accounts so that way you can read some of the separate comments on each two of them.

I was labeled as delusional tyrant after these two journal posts had been written on DeviantART. I didn't know what to do when she'd already blocked me and helped me open my eyes to see how much damaged I've caused so I've went to grab myself a whine and start drinking that would get myself drunk without waking up my family in the middle of the night. Was loosing my senses along with my balance but haven't tripped on anything when I was walking across the hallway and the living room. I've been secretly whimpering to myself in my room that I don't want my family to know I was crying. I've been having constant depressing following these such days that I've been thinking of throwing my life away just to keep myself from hurting her even further. Whenever I'm in bed asleep, I keep thinking these exact words that VoidShark had said to me from one part of her gigantic note she sent on DA,

"I’ve spent years of my life working on these little guys, they have my heart and soul ingrained into every ounce of their being and they are a deep part of my emotional existence. They are me, and I am them, I am their creator, we are connected. When you mess with them, you mess with me. What I work on is part of what keeps me going through all my health stuff. I will be the first to admit that without my art and writing, without these little alien kitty creations I’ve stumbled upon creating I’d have given up. I’d have stopped meds, eating, I’d be in deep depression if not flat out dead. Just about every day I feel terrible, and could very easily spend it lying in bed, but I don’t. And you know why? Because I want to work on Qwuedeviv n such to show my friends. I want to share my world with them, and the fact that they’re willing to allow me, encourages me enough to pull myself up out of bed."

These exact words will forever haunt me every time I think back about her gigantic note she wrote and send me to show how much she's been disgusted about my bad behaviors since then. I've been constantly thinking myself to death, "What have I done to deserve this kind of punishment that I was been asking for out of my rhetoric actions towards her?!" which had been weighted over my shoulders while still being blocked by her in a three-month process (August-November 2015).

The reason I've posted this journal regarding on loosing myself in a process is because I've been a horrible virus to her. I've been a shadow to her since the start of December 2014 that I've drew my first Qwuedeviv shipping pic that took her for days to make up a nice response to my pic even though its never been intentional as it had struck her heart severely with such offense that she's been putting a lot of effort on making her own characters and I was ashamed of everything.

I wanted to undoing such horrible catastrophes for the sake of making her feel better. I really wanted to submit my whole life on helping her pay off her medical bills which will also pay my personal price of undoing my mistakes I've made. I wanted to prevent her from feeling ill that keeps her in bed for so many years. I wanted her to be able to walk without using her wheelchair that she's been using for almost a year now (as far as my knowledge goes). I wanted to take care of her in a way that she would forgive me for everything I've caused so much strife on her.





I'm not sure if I can go on explaining but right now I'm not sure whenever or not she would see how I've lost myself in a process. I can explain what got me so riled up that I've brought destruction on her life that she'd blocked me for the last three months from last year and then decided to unblock me since I've already changed my ways but that's just another story that I won't mention cause... well... lets just say that I've been holding my own peril within myself for years that it decided to break out of me that I'm not gonna talk about it at all for my own personal security reasons.
I just wanted to let her know that I feel sorry for everything that I've been feeling complete depressed for what I've done. Right now I felt useless as if I wasn't gonna able to be her close friend but I doubt that would happen cause I'm just not good enough as far as I've been feeling concerned for myself.

I've been completely alone for so many years that I just didn't have a right decent friend or some family with another separate blood that I can get along with really well. I've already lost myself being completely empty inside a long time ago that I'm not gonna dig through about nor elaborate on what my life has been through so far when I was growing up being an escape goat to someone that I've been backstabbed, lied, used, schemed, and some other nasty treacherous things that I never appreciate such irresponsible moves that brought my life down which caused myself being a delusional tyrant towards everyone within Void-Shark's community.

For now I will be spending much of my misery in my bed reading over Void-Shark's note she wrote to me since 17th August 2015 as a reminder to who I was back then. Yet again I'm sorry for everything. <='(

Goodbye for now.

August 17th by CharlieAscende
  • Listening to: Daydream No. 19 by Trocadero
  • Reading: Void-Shark's old note since August 17, 2015

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DiamondEyes32 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Hellloooo random Stranger! ^.^
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CharlieAscende Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Heyoooo random visitor! o3o
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DiamondEyes32 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
How are you on this glore-tastic day? .3.
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CharlieAscende Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Pretty tired/crappy a bit. I'm not a very energetic person so I usually just relax before I draw and submit a new pic for like once every week or so.
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